Sorry to make this about me, but I really feel like a future Roland. I've thought of writing a blog post about it, but I can't think of any angle where I don't come off as a whiny annoying bitch.
I'm nearing 30 and I've been in a relationship. It's the one piece of myself that I just can't seem to put together. I have hobbies I enjoy, I have a good group of friend, I have a job that pays me more than it has any reason to, and I don't have any health issues.
I went to a lot of social events in college, and I'm trying my best to attend similar events. I've used the apps. Yet, I just can't imagine any version of my life where I'm in a relationship. To make a random example, I could imagine "me" becoming a tenured professor. That would be a very different life. It's a life I have no interest in, but it's something I can imagine me doing. I cannot, however, imagine myself inhabiting the role of "boyfriend" anymore than I can imagine myself being a 11th century Viking.
It doesn't bother me 99% of the time, but every once in a while I just get a nagging feeling that I'm missing out on something that's an important part of being a human.
Sorry for the barely-on-topic rant, just feels nice to talk about it sometime.
Man, I don't even have that. I got used to eating in restaurants alone a long time ago. I never wanted romance; never saw why people threw themselves at it to the point of killing themselves. Wish I could at least make friends, though. Find myself surrounded by more and more Rolands; eventually won't fit in with people my own age. Trying to do something to reverse this.
I have taken a break from work to comment on this for two reasons:
1) I have asked numerous people what you do for a living, and not a single one has been able to tell me.
2) Corrie and I never do anything for Valentines Day. We're lucky if we even remember. It's just not our thing. More often, we'll do something days or weeks later and use the missed Valentines Day as an excuse to make whatever we do more expensive.
Sorry to make this about me, but I really feel like a future Roland. I've thought of writing a blog post about it, but I can't think of any angle where I don't come off as a whiny annoying bitch.
I'm nearing 30 and I've been in a relationship. It's the one piece of myself that I just can't seem to put together. I have hobbies I enjoy, I have a good group of friend, I have a job that pays me more than it has any reason to, and I don't have any health issues.
I went to a lot of social events in college, and I'm trying my best to attend similar events. I've used the apps. Yet, I just can't imagine any version of my life where I'm in a relationship. To make a random example, I could imagine "me" becoming a tenured professor. That would be a very different life. It's a life I have no interest in, but it's something I can imagine me doing. I cannot, however, imagine myself inhabiting the role of "boyfriend" anymore than I can imagine myself being a 11th century Viking.
It doesn't bother me 99% of the time, but every once in a while I just get a nagging feeling that I'm missing out on something that's an important part of being a human.
Sorry for the barely-on-topic rant, just feels nice to talk about it sometime.
Man, I don't even have that. I got used to eating in restaurants alone a long time ago. I never wanted romance; never saw why people threw themselves at it to the point of killing themselves. Wish I could at least make friends, though. Find myself surrounded by more and more Rolands; eventually won't fit in with people my own age. Trying to do something to reverse this.
I have taken a break from work to comment on this for two reasons:
1) I have asked numerous people what you do for a living, and not a single one has been able to tell me.
2) Corrie and I never do anything for Valentines Day. We're lucky if we even remember. It's just not our thing. More often, we'll do something days or weeks later and use the missed Valentines Day as an excuse to make whatever we do more expensive.